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So they inquired again of the Lord,” is there a man still to come?” and the Lord said,” behold he has hidden himself among the baggage.”1 Samuel 10:22
Saul was a most unlikely king, nonetheless, he was God’s choice for Israel’s long-awaited king.
Most unusually, Saul discovered he would be Israel’s king. When he did, he seemed not to believe that of all the people God could choose to lead Israel, God could pick him. Saul had a serious case of insecurity that follows him into his reign over Israel.
His response when he finds out that he is going to be the next king is, ” Am I not a Benjamite, from the least of the tribes of Israel? And is not my clan the humblest of all the clans of the tribe of Benjamin? Why then have you spoken to me this way?” 1 Samuel 9: 21
Saul had a long list of excuses. I’m pretty sure Saul could have gone on and on listing all the reasons why he couldn’t be the next king.
What’s more astounding is that even when God gave Him signs to prove to him that he had picked him. When the day of the inauguration came, Saul chooses his insecurities instead of God’s proven word.
Imagine the whole country gathering up waiting to crown the new king and he is Awol. They begin to look for him and find out he showed for the inauguration but decided to hide.
God said, Behold, he has hidden himself under the baggage. “Saul’s baggage was not only physical it was also internal ( as we discover later in the story). We can hide under internal baggage.
What baggage are you hiding under?
There are so many people God has called into amazing things but they have been hiding under baggage.Maybe you came from a family that didn’t believe you could amount to anything. And you have used that as your hiding place. Maybe people didn’t see the gifting that God has placed on you for a long time and you have hid behind that. Maybe you have believed you will always live a mediocre life, you aren’t that great and nobody will want to follow you, so you use that as your baggage. Your baggage could be your past.you cant seem to believe that God has wiped it clean.
God’s call will always be bigger than us. It will require we break up with who we think we were, and step into the places He has called us into. We cannot go with our insecurities. We cannot follow God and follow our insecurities. We will have to choose one.
Saul eventually came out from his physical baggage, but he carried his internal baggage into what God had called him to. Eventually, it was his ruin.
Our insecurities will become our ruin if we don’t choose to lay them down.
If we don’t choose to lay down the baggage that has been stopping us from following the call of God. It will destroy what God has for us. Saul never could get away from all the insecurities he had developed growing up.
How do we break up with our baggage?
We learn to trust God to heal and change us. Because of the places we’ve been, some things are so ingrained in us that it requires the hand of God to change us. We are told , Immediately he turned his back to leave Samuel, God gave him another heart. 1 Samuel 10:9 God gave Saul another heart. A heart that could follow God without being hindered by all his insecurities. God doesn’t call us and leave us to our own devices. He makes sure we are equipped to do what He has called us to do.
We have to step into the grace of God. We are going to have to fight our old ways when they threaten to take us back to the places God has delivered us from. Even though Saul now had a new heart, he was going to have to stay free of his insecurities. Situations will arise that will threaten to throw us back into the insecurities we’ve been set free from. Paul reminds us, But whatever I am now, it is all because God has poured out his special favor on me – and not without results. 1 Corinthians 15:10 The evidence of God choosing you is the grace that has been poured out in your life. Stand firm in grace without fear.
A new heart requires a new way. We cannot claim that God has made us new in Christ then do things the same way we have always done. The evidence that we have been changed is that our former ways will begin to dissipate off our lives. as we stay in the word; seek His presence, we will become a new creation in Him.Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Saul didn’t know that God giving him a new heart meant that he could no longer live the same way he had.
We have to break up with our insecurities. If we don’t break up with our insecurities God will choose someone else. One of the saddest stories in the word is the story of Saul. For God rejected him. God said of Saul. “ I regret that I made Saul king, for he has turned back from following me and has not performed my commandments.” 1 Samuel 15:11 Saul had turned back to his insecurities… God will not waste His grace on us. If we refuse to do what He has called us to do. He will take His grace and anointing somewhere else. He will find someone who will follow Him wholeheartedly. There is something I love to say, “God is extravagant but He is not wasteful.”
Father, I bring you all my insecurities. I accept that I have been hiding under my baggage like saul. I have not gone where I was supposed to go. I have disobeyed your commands and listened to my insecurities. I lay them down. I receive a new heart today. I will no longer walk in insecurities but walk in the grace that you have poured out on me. your grace is enough for me. I am worthy because of Christ. My worthiness doesn’t come from me, it comes from you. I trust that everything I need to fulfill this call. You have extravagantly made available for me. Thank you, Lord, in Jesus name Amen.